Or, this is what it feels like to miss you. Whoa.
Or, Hakuna Matata!
Little by little, petit à petit, schwiya schwiya, I’m becoming accustomed to life here. Can I even say that after less than a week? It seems as though it’s been years since Thursday afternoon, when we caught our first glimpses of the sun sinking into the ocean beyond Rabat; it’s been a whirlwind of second languages, early mornings and late nights, intensive Darija class, figuring out the laid-back but lively Moroccan lifestyle, American bars and the same set of stars.
We got lost walking from the tram stop this evening; without Qaiss to guide us (he walked us yesterday), we were halfway to Souissi (another cartier in Rabat) before realizing our mistake and hailing un pétit taxi to take us home to l’Oudaya. Quel adventure! My fleecy pants finally dried, so I’m a contented panda curled on the couch with Alexandra, Sarah, Wided, and Abir.
Still, as the excitement of arrival fades and I settle into life here, quiet moments after a long day catch me checking facebook and e-mail, trying to identify this strange feeling that only surfaces when I sit still long enough. I feel starved for news of my friends, at home or abroad, though that feels silly because it’s only been a few days. Besides, everything is great—I have nothing to complain about, my family is wonderful, I’m happy and never lonely, there are plenty of things to do…but this, I realize, is what it feels like to really miss you.
I guess how much time has passed doesn’t matter. I guess being comfortable and happy doesn’t matter either. Sometimes, there are moments I miss you, and sometimes four months looks really scary. Always, though, despite sketchy internet, I’m grateful that you’re only a mouse click away!
Ça vient, schwiya, schwiya, bit by bit, and lonely moments always dissolve into rambunctious, loud, hilarious conversations over steaming tagines at the center of our crowded table.
Schwiya, schwiya, I tell myself in lonely moments. It’s like Hakuna Matata. Schwiya, schwiya, et tout va bien!